My Inner Inner City

1. In the Dentist Office - wherein I discover the Inner Playground: (mp3)
2. The Inner Playground - defined
3. My Inner Inner City
4. My Own Private Hollywood
5. Part Two: Games for the Inner Player
6. Freeze Tag
7. Mother May I
8. Simon Says
9. Part Three: Building an Inner Playground
10. The Inner Seesaw
11. My Inner Swingset
12. Part Four: Introducing Serious and Silly
13. Serious and Silly (mp3)
14. Kick the Can

Amuse myself, abuse myself, entertain myself, scare myself, heal myself, applaud myself, enjoy myself.

And not just myself.

It's not just the two of me in here, you know.

Least case scenario, there's:

1) the "I" I'm thinking about and
2) the "I" that's doing the thinking, and then there's
3) the third "I" -- the "I" that's thinking about the both of us.

1) There's an inner "we" that is really "me," and v.v.
And 2) all we/me really want/s to do is play.

So I could, when necessary, transform the world.

A case in point:

From Jason Mann:

...a game I used to play when I was in elementary school and heading to Dobbs (the bar where Mom worked on South Street) after school:

I would have contests to see if I could jump over a whole square of the sidewalk, or run to the end of the street before the bus got to the corner, or that no cars would drive past me in the next five seconds.

The funny thing about it was that I would say to myself, "Bet a million bucks," to start the bet. I would usually have to say it fast because the contest was often time related.

When I first started this, I had to establish the rules. Who was I betting with? Where would I come up with the money if I lost? I decided that it would have to be a non person, because I did not want to take "a million bucks" from anyone. I don't remember exactly, but I think I may have decided that the bet was with God. A million or two less wouldn't make any difference to him. If I lost, though, I think that the deal was that something bad could happen to me before I made it safely to my destination.

Thank God for "double or nothing."